I have often heard it say that artists are isolated frustrated people who live in a world of unrealistic dreams. Our planet is filled with many who offer much to it.  Admittedly I will say that the human spirit is often filled with the desire to offer what it can to make a difference in the world.  What do artists offer? They are people who live a lifetime doodling with their paintbrushes, playing with their instruments, and writing their thoughts on any piece of paper they can find.  They are free spirits who live day after day on a quest to make their dream come true.  Most of us “normal” hard working folks don’t get them; and as much as we might love them we misunderstand their need to do what they must for their need to be creative. Is it worth it, we often ask? Is all their suffering, financial instability and even loneliness worth a moment of creative expression? Creative people are different, and throughout history this has been a fact.  Many die young, many are unknown until that death takes place, and many are viewed as crazy.  Many artists live with their inner demons; still those demons are what often times bring the muse to appear. The painting “At Eternity’s Gate may reflect what Vincent Van Gogh was feeling at the time he painted it. Two months or so later, he died by a self induced gunshot.

Rembrandt died nearly bankrupt at age 63, Jackson Pollock’s overuse of alcohol along with his depression got the better of him, finally leading him to kill himself by overturning his car while driving drunk.  These are only few of the many that include younger artists like Janis Joplin, Kurt Cobain ad Jim Morrison.  Why then should we as presumed levelheaded people pay attention to the artist? Why when the perception is that they are only depressed individuals fighting for a dream that may or may not come true?  Well… because without them we would be completely and utterly empty.

The creative person is an advocate of meaning. The artist sees and hears the world differently.  They see beauty in what most of us pass by without truly recognizing it. The beauty, the ugliness, the fearful is taken in, then expressed in their music, art, poetry and dance. Yes, many may be sad, many are frustrated, and perhaps that is often reflected in their work. Still we need to recognize that their selfless act of turning their emotions into breathtaking art, remarkable music, and enlightening poetry allows us to be the ones who reward from it; and too often we take their struggle for granted. Today I would like to say thank you to all artists.  Thank you for your gifts.  Thank you for your altruistic way of giving us “you” in every brush stroke, in every stroke of your instrument, in every word, and in your voice. To all those that continue to strive for their dream I say this.. please don’t ever give up because this world needs your beauty.

Today you live for today; in case there is no tomorrow.
Once I’m dead I take nothing; so I’ll do all I can with no sorrow.

Today I am here and that’s what truly matters;
who knows if tomorrow my life unexpectedly shatters.

All that I live is what I am truly worth;
so I’ll take all I can while here on this earth.

How sad can it be only thinking of what you can take;
leaving those uncertain, of what to them you gave.

It’s not what you take, this you must believe
that what matters to those you love…
is what on earth you leave.

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Antagonism… despair, desperation, hostility, doubt. These are just a few of the feelings we humans live with each day of our lives. We pack our minds with the negative side of our perpetual view of the world choosing to subsist each day while protesting the horrible side of humans. However true it may be.

The wars and killing of our own kind,  the hunger; the despair; the ghastly way we neglet our own planet.  We look and look and look some more, until filled with anger we then say… “Humans are SHIT!”   We voice it stridently  for all to hear and without realizing it, we are also giving into the side of the world we so much criticize. I am known for being an optimist… I live as one every day, yet, I too have beared witness to true pain.  I have held him while his seizures have taken over his body with exposive trembles as he foams from the mouth due to his epilepsy…Rick my brother.  I’ve seen the face of madness and have been horrified by his eyes as he is choking my mother….. Gus, my schizophrenic brother. I have shaved the few strands of hair left on her head…my 17 year old niece Heather while she fought cancer.  The lifeless comatose body left us as I held his hand while I said goodbye… Eddy, my brother… he was 32.  This has been my war, my despair.  I loved him so… he was my first true love and the one to receive the gift of my virginity.  My love and the one I found with another man.

If we look deep enough our own friends, family, and neighbors,  we see what we often miss.  We miss the true selves they are. We want to see the world and people as a whole. We don’t concentrate on the one.  I often think of the words of Mother Teresa… “Jesus said love one another. He didn’t say love the whole world.“  Interesting how when we try to do so much with our voice we never have time to do a little with our hands.  Hubert Humphrey said “The impersonal hand of government can never replace the helping hand of a neighbor.”

Have you ever seen a neighbor taking grocery bags out of their car and struggle with all of them and you just keep walking on your own way?  Have you ever been asked a favor by someone and even though you said “sure,”  you forgot about it? It just wasn’t that important. Have you ever offered to help a friend or family member with their kids so they can take a break from the craziness? When you say to someone… “If you need to talk, just call me..”  and when they do…. you roll your eyes because you just don’t have the time right now.  Have you ever really watched and listened to those next to you?  Right next to you?

I wanted to write this because I am one to think that by very small (and to some) very insignificant ways, we can somehow make a difference.

If only we begin by “TRULY” looking in the mirror.

Yesterday was a very tiring day.  Work was hectic and traffic was worse.  It took me over an hour to get home which is a daily routine for me.  As I drove I looked up noticing the very gray sky and seeing the small rain drops falling on my windshield. I prepared for traffic to get worse appreciating that in Miami people drive even slower when it rains. I heard the car engines, the horns, saw people on their cells and even saw a few fingers flying in the air.  After about 30 minutes in the car, I looked at the time and realized that I still had about another 20 -30 minutes to go if I was lucky.  Images and thoughts wandered as they often do when I have to sit in the car for a long period of time.  I then silently asked; Dear God, how much longer will I have to do this?

I have been working since I was 15. That’s over 30 years.  I have often wanted to have my own business, or do something different. I’ve always wanted to make a difference.  I will admit that often times I have envied those having the luxury and/or money to stay home and build their dream. I come back to reality desperately Zig-Zaggin all the traffic and rain. “I finally made it” I think to myself  as I walk though my door dropping all my things on the floor. I take my shoes off and head to my room.  I take a long shower, make a quick healthy dinner and begin to finally relax.  I turn on the television and begin watching a documentary called “Lemonade the Movie:” I notice it’s about people who have been laid off and what they have done after getting the “pink slip”.   The tag line for the movie is “It’s not a pink slip, it’s a blank page”.  Filled with curiosity, I watched it and heard the stories of people who have felt devastated by the fact that they now have no pay check.  I then began to think about the question I asked God in the car… “How much longer?” I didn’t have an answer.  I wondered; does God have the answer? Does destiny?  All I really knew was that today my spouse and I have to work. We must pay the bills, the doctors, the schools, and the IRS.  If we don’t’ work what will happen? Who will be become? What will we become?    I also knew another thing though, I knew that we both had dreams and have often worked hard to make them happen; still we are overwhelmed by life and the responsibilities we must meet and the reality of our daily habitual work life.

I continued watching the movie and after it was over my spouse and I just turned our heads to each other without saying a word. I know it was something that wedged in him as well as me.  It made so much of an impact that I wanted to write about it and to take a moment to tell everyone that has recently been laid off to just DO IT!  If you’ve always had a dream, or wanted to do something, now is the time.  Don’t sit moping wondering where the next check will come from.  Don’t feel sorry for yourself, because as long as you have the will you can have the power.  It’s a blank page.  Take advantage of your time and fill it up!

There is so much you can do in order to meet quality professional people in this city.  But let’s face it folks, the problem is that when we are down, unemployed, and feeling crappy, the last thing we want to do is put on a happy face and collect cards from people we don’t even know.   Most of the time, our dismal approach to life’s difficulties will make us want to vent instead of cheerfully introducing ourselves in a positive way to a business person.  You must know this; there is no way you can make any changes in your life until you decide what you really want.  Many of us often say, “Why doesn’t anything ever go right for me?  Well, maybe what you think is right for you, really isn’t.  We are stubborn creatures and we want things the way we want them.  Change is not easy for us, and making adjustments comes hard.  We sometimes work for something so hard with no results that we then begin to see things negatively.  We cram everything into one idea, one hope and one dream.  This is fine, but sometimes life opens a different door, and we must at the very least give it a chance.  Sometimes that very door is the one that will ultimately lead us to that dream.  Don’t’ be stubborn, ask for help and be giving to yourself.  There is nothing wrong with asking for a lending hand.  Most of the great leaders call it networking.

You can make things happen, but there is one very important thing you must remember…you must want to do it.  You will never make any changes in your life until you decide that “it is the time” you need to put “headwork” into it.  The same way you sit and pout on life’s problems and ponder ideas around your head, you can put effort into finding the solution. But how do you do that?  Stop thinking so much about how, and begin doing. Make a call, send an e-mail to a contact, join a networking group.   Make a move to call ten people from the past, even ex colleagues, don’t be shy to ask for help, for advice, and for leads.  Network..Network..Network!!  

Decide today what it is you want to do.  You can decide to go to a business function or card exchange, make yourself personal cards with your name and contact information.  I once added… “Looking for a Job” on mine.  Walk the mile and drop off your resume in 10 offices. But you must make the decision.  Decide what it is you really want.  Decide, decide, decide.  Maybe you’ve even wondered about going back to school and enhancing your skills for that career you want.  If you think too much about it, nothing will happen. Make the call!

I began collecting business cards in networking events many years ago.  I still have them and call many of the people I met.  I keep my contact list very broad and network at as much as I can.  Even when there is no chance to do it in person I write e-mails to just send a “hello how are you doing”.  Listen folks, there is no excuse for not trying hard.  We get into a slump and it’s much safer to stay there. We’ve all done it.  But the truth is, you need to recognize that you can do it.  If you are having trouble, ask for help, but understand that when someone begins helping you; it’s not nagging or pushing.  They are helping you.

Many times I’ve been in the position where a person asked me for help finding a job.  Then when I begin suggesting things like;  clean up your resume, make this call, get up early, the person then begins to shut the door.  It’s almost like a “please don’t bother me so much” Then I ask…why the hell did you solicit my help then?

We all need to better ourselves, we all need help.  The problem is we don’t like it when someone is real with us, because the truth hurts.   Stop It!!  Look hard in the mirror and see who is looking back.  Don’t blame others for your mistakes and don’t blame the economy for your lack of desire.  Go out there and go get’em, Why?  Because you can!

So, with all that said here are some ways to go out there and begin meeting people.  It’s not as hard as you think.  Just decide…and Do it!!

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I often wonder why the easiest promises to break are those we make to ourselves. I’ve made promises to myself when wanting to accomplish many things in my life. Months and even years later I look back and they are still sitting in the back burner waiting.  My projects linger, often times peaking through reminding me they are still there.

How many times have you done that? Do you have such a dream? Are you working on a project and just can’t seem to get started? What is it that separates those that do it from those who say they will but never do? Like someone who wants to begin to exercise, the first day is very hard, the first week even harder. But once you begin your routine it becomes easier and becomes a part of your daily practice. It’s all about picking that first day then taking baby steps. If you do a little every day, it eventually adds up inspiring your confidence so that you continue. No bird can fly until his wings begin to apprehensively but undoubtedly move. In the beginning, the bird will fall repeatedly until his determination and need teach him that he must fly. The bird begins to soar through the sky seeing the  endless possibilities of travel. Like the bird, we must also begin to move our  wings.

We must become one with our dream and work each day towards reaching it, even if it’s just a little each day. How many of us close our eyes and visualize a life of fulfillment and achievement. We see ourselves in a different place, a different business position and even a different financial situation. Then for some reason we live it by simply dreaming it.  We do little to get out of the comfort zone. The zone that prevents us from working hard and even missing out on some fun.  Suddenly we look in the mirror realizing that the years have gone by; regretting and desperately seeking justifications for why we didn’t do the things we really needed to do and why we didn’t work harder. We search for reasons because to admit that we just didn’t work as hard as we needed to would be to admit we were just plain indolent.

Still, sometimes even when we do work hard, things just don’t happen the way they should or they way we expect them to. Some may say luck was just not on our side. Leaving us to question is it all about luck; and if it is, how much of it do we really need?

When working for your dream, there will always be that someone who will say no, and many who will just not believe in what you are doing (everybody’s a critic!). I agree that in life, it sometimes helps to be in the right place at the right time. But for the most part, it really is all about hard work and determination.  Never give up on what you truly believe in, and never stop telling the world about it because you still haven’t made it. Someone recently told me, “If one is out of site…one is out of mind” and it stuck. If I don’t show my work, show my face, shake hands and network, then I will be forgotten. I need for everyone to know about me and about what I do. So go out there and face everyone. Shake hands, pass out your card, make the calls and find the leads. If you do nothing, it will lead to just that. If you do a lot, it will lead to just that.

As I lie awake at 1:41 am I sit with my lap top and going through web pages. I come across a story of a woman by the name of Nancy who lost 500 lbs. with no surgery. I found her story absorbing not only for the fact that she lost the weight but more so because of her feelings that carried her through her journey. One day she decided to get on line and chat with people on line. She began meeting people who liked her for who she was and what she had to say. “The anonymity of the computer gave me access to a world that just as well have left me alone. Alone to die, but I did not”. She goes on to say that people who want to lose weight think that, that is the key; but in truth the key is to find contentment and value in yourself.

So I began to think… What do we really need to fulfill ourselves enough in order to be happy. Many of us think we know what we want. We “want” to look good! We want to kill the wrinkles and sagging skin, we want thick lashes, we want pretty hair, and sexy legs, and so on, and so on. This morning I stood in front of my mirror looking at my face and lifting my cheeks and temples upward as I turned from side to side to see the difference in my face if I had it lifted. I then looked at my arms and began poking all the little dimples from the extra few pounds I have. Then I realized that what I experiencing was also a result of my recent cervical spine surgery. I was in bed for over a month and gained a few pounds. I feel fat, undesirable, and now scared that I will never be able to work out hard. Well, after I heard Nancy’s story, I realized that if she lost 500 what keep me from losing the 25 I have to. Dammit, woman, I thought, how the hell do you have the nerve to complain? So, I pulled up my blog and decided to write about it.

I am 49 years old. I am something today that I have not been in years. I am pain free. In my blogs I write about my fibromyalgia and my life in pain. Well, a month ago I had cervical spine surgery because I was beginning to lose mobility in my upper body and the pain was horrific. After my surgery I woke up and noticed that I could lift my arms. I then began recovering and now even wonder if I ever even had FM. I am so thrilled that every time I am asked “hi, how are you?” I no longer answer “good” to be polite, I now answer “I am WONDERFUL” and how about you?

So, now I come to the part of why I’m writing. I want to tell you all this. If you have no pain, and have your health… ‘THERE IS NO EXCUSE”. There is so much to do, and so much to see. Life is just there hanging for you to grab it by the tail. You have so much power if you are alive. If you breath, you are capable. The question is, how much are you willing to do to in order to do? Don’t look back some day and say..I wish I would have. Only you can make the change. Only you can control the power. Join me on my travel to 50. Let’s see how I do? No more pain inside or out.

What keeps us from doing what we need to do in order to meet our goal?  This year on Dec 31 I’ll be 50 years old.  I sometimes look back at my life and wonder about all the things I could have done in 50 years and wonder what happened.  There were so many moments in my life that I had the time given to me and I did nothing with it.  Has that ever happened to you?  You notice that time is on your side yet, you choose to watch TV, or take a nap, or hang out at the mall.  Those times are gone the next day.   There is nothing you can do to bring back that time.  A moment you could have given to your dream, to your goal to your success.

We look at people who  have made their dream come true, or met their goal and we often resent  the fact they made it justifying their success with a comment like “some people just have luck on their side.”

On my 49^th birthday which happened to be this past 31 st of Dec, I promised myself that I would begin a new way of living and would work towards looking and feeling better at 50.  I told all my friends and family that even though I was living with pain due to my fibromyalgia, I was going to find a way to feel better.  I would work hard this year and celebrate my 50^th feeling and looking better than ever.  Then something happened.  Two weeks ago I had to have urgent cervical spine surgery.  I had been living in pain for so many years never imagining it could be something more than what the doctors had told me.

Now I have to stay at home in bed recovering from the surgery.  It was quite critical and if I could have easily lost all mobility in my upper body.   Then I found out I would have to be on medical leave for a month or even more.  I thought to myself… Hmmmm?  I could use this time for my writing.  Nope, the doctor said, cannot be on the computer for more than 20 minutes.  Well… there goes my plan to try and write a few chapters of the book I’m working on.

I have gained 10 lbs over the 15 I already needed to lose and am getting down.  My thoughts race and I question my life, my luck, my destiny.  One month before my surgery you see, my significant other was hospitalized for three weeks.  He was very ill and I spend all that time with him.  It took a lot out of me and I couldn’t help but wonder.  Why us?

So that brings me to today.  I sit here on my bed with my lap top which I’ll have to put down in about five minutes.  But thought… I can’t give up.  I will not lose it and give my power to negativity.  I will keep my dream alive. I will also keep my energy going and will still be better than ever at 50.  So a month was taken from me… I still have 11 left.   I will also help my man with his dreams.  At this very moment he sings and I write.  We will continue.. we will make it!

Tell me.  What is your dream?  How hard has it been to reach it?  I would love to hear your story.

All of us have dreams.  We work to make those dreams come true and at times it feels as though it will never happen.  In truth we must realize that it is rarely about luck.  It is about hard work.  No dream and no goal will happen without hard work.  We need to see it in our mind as if it’s right there.  Think it’s close enough to touch and keep working every single day toward your goal.  Never give up…” NEVER”.  If you do, then you must admit that you may not want it that bad.  Look at yourself  in the mirror and ask yourslef; “How much do I want this?” then asnwer.  Look at your days and see how they are filled.  Do you work towards your dream every day or do you find  that days go by and you have worked very little toward reaching that goal.  Never blame anyone for not reaching your goal, if you don’t work hard it will not happen.  Yes, sometimes there are people who have a little more luck and things come easier.  But always remember that you have the power to make things happen.  You have the power.  You do!! Never forget it.  Click on the link below and see what can happen when we have the desire and the willingness.  When we realize that the power we have is endless. 

You think you can’t ?

How many motivational books, quotes, videos, have you come across?  Most of us are so fed up by the troubles of life that we will try anything we can to change things in our lives.   Is it true that the power of positive thinking can help us find happiness?  It’s no secret that the teachings of the law of attraction have been widely spread. No one can say it’s a bad thing, although some question it. A lot of us will try it because as human beings we have the genuine need to be happy and fulfilled.  Many of the motivational gurus will account much of their own stories of emotional survival, and many will want to teach us how we can to do it ourselves.  We are so desperate to find answers on “how to” that we will follow any sort of instruction, put it to practice and hope for life to change right in from of our eyes.

People in control of their lives will say over and over that it’s up to you and that you have the power to change anything you want. But how do you start using this power when you don’t even have the strength to wake up in the morning. You hear the experts on television, you see the commercials, and you may even spend the last few dollars you have to buy the book, the CD or go to the conference.  There’s absolutely nothing wrong with finding ways of getting motivated, hell;  I try it all the time and I also share it all the time. I am living proof that you can make it through pretty much anything.

Desolation!  I’ve lived it and have surpassed it; I now want to others to do the same.  There are many motivational speakers, coaches, mentors that may take advantage and sell their life changing ideas to those in need. It’s no secret that when you’re really hungry…you’ll eat anything.  Many of what you hear and many of the things being practiced and taught by life gurus are not new.  Even many popular books will point out that they’ve existed for centuries.  It’s nothing new folks!   Ask yourself this.. Do I have survival instincts?   When I ask this I don’t mean, what you would do in a moment of physical threat.  I mean; can you survive emotional threat.  We can’t see emotional harm, so we tend to allow it in easily and live in us. Suddenly we are feeling like crap, blaming God, people, and even ourselves for being so stupid and giving people permission to hurt us. Sometimes admitting fault is so hard that we live in denial daily.  We then work hard in finding justifications for negative treatments and our giving consent to those that are harming our essence. We hurt, become confused, feel empty and find no answer.

Then someone sends us some YouTube motivational video, or a name of a great book.  We hear and read what we already know but never put into practice.  Don’t get me wrong, the books are great, I myself have many. The seminars are fantastic and I go as often as I can; and as far as YouTube… I love it!

But when we are hurting and we want things to change in our lives; there must come a time when you ask… “How bad do I want it?” How bad do you want your life to change?  I’ve got news for you… It won’t, unless you do it yourself!  Stop the pity party and wake up.  As for me, I loved my party.  It was mine and feeling sorry for myself meant others could maybe have some sort of sympathy for me.  Yes I was in control but it was the wrong kind.  Feeling sorry for myself meant one thing.. At least I feel something.  Then I realized it was really not a good way to constantly be feeling.   I had to do something; so I began to look at myself and ask… “Do you REALLY want your life to change?”  I accepted that I had valid reasons for feeling so bad.  My first step was admitting there is nothing wrong with feeling sad.  I had lived through some pretty rough times and many people have taken a lot from me and my spirit.  Many people have hurt me.   The second step was realizing that I had and owned the power to change it.  Own…own…own… You own your power.   Then came the question; how do I want to live my life and can I use this power to make it happen.  The choices we make have plenty to do with the happiness in our lives.  We tend to put up with bad relationships because we would rather do that than be alone.  Are we happy?  No, but at least we’re not alone.

Get yourself out of that pothole. Believe in you and that being WITH you can be a truly wonderful experience. Trust in the strength you have.  Don’t underestimate the decisions you can make once you have taken yourself out of the pothole.  The first question however, is “Do I Really Want To” Being sad, and feeling helpless tends to give us more attention. We’ll get the pat on back, a hug; have friends and family worry about us.  So, in turn we feel that others care and at least have that.  If we are strong and fearless the chance is no one will give us that hug, no one will pay attention to our needs because they will think we have none.  It’s not that way at all.  As a matter of fact, I love that I can be strong and show others that strength.  I love writing but never did it for others to enjoy and learn.  I did it for my comfort and shame on me for that. Today I love expressing myself with my words on paper, I love the reactions from people, and I love voicing my strength. I love finding ways to be happy even if it’s by simply walking in the park.  I have no money but I have so much more.  I find the beauty in others and know for a fact that people can be so very beautiful!  Don’t give up on yourself.  Don’t give up on your dreams even when they have to rest for a while.  Don’t give up on you… even when others have.  I didn’t make it this far to give up.
I did after all…make it this far!   If you believe it; you can become it.