No More Pain!

As I lie awake at 1:41 am I sit with my lap top and going through web pages. I come across a story of a woman by the name of Nancy who lost 500 lbs. with no surgery. I found her story absorbing not only for the fact that she lost the weight but more so because of her feelings that carried her through her journey. One day she decided to get on line and chat with people on line. She began meeting people who liked her for who she was and what she had to say. “The anonymity of the computer gave me access to a world that just as well have left me alone. Alone to die, but I did not”. She goes on to say that people who want to lose weight think that, that is the key; but in truth the key is to find contentment and value in yourself.

So I began to think… What do we really need to fulfill ourselves enough in order to be happy. Many of us think we know what we want. We “want” to look good! We want to kill the wrinkles and sagging skin, we want thick lashes, we want pretty hair, and sexy legs, and so on, and so on. This morning I stood in front of my mirror looking at my face and lifting my cheeks and temples upward as I turned from side to side to see the difference in my face if I had it lifted. I then looked at my arms and began poking all the little dimples from the extra few pounds I have. Then I realized that what I experiencing was also a result of my recent cervical spine surgery. I was in bed for over a month and gained a few pounds. I feel fat, undesirable, and now scared that I will never be able to work out hard. Well, after I heard Nancy’s story, I realized that if she lost 500 what keep me from losing the 25 I have to. Dammit, woman, I thought, how the hell do you have the nerve to complain? So, I pulled up my blog and decided to write about it.

I am 49 years old. I am something today that I have not been in years. I am pain free. In my blogs I write about my fibromyalgia and my life in pain. Well, a month ago I had cervical spine surgery because I was beginning to lose mobility in my upper body and the pain was horrific. After my surgery I woke up and noticed that I could lift my arms. I then began recovering and now even wonder if I ever even had FM. I am so thrilled that every time I am asked “hi, how are you?” I no longer answer “good” to be polite, I now answer “I am WONDERFUL” and how about you?

So, now I come to the part of why I’m writing. I want to tell you all this. If you have no pain, and have your health… ‘THERE IS NO EXCUSE”. There is so much to do, and so much to see. Life is just there hanging for you to grab it by the tail. You have so much power if you are alive. If you breath, you are capable. The question is, how much are you willing to do to in order to do? Don’t look back some day and say..I wish I would have. Only you can make the change. Only you can control the power. Join me on my travel to 50. Let’s see how I do? No more pain inside or out.